Amanda Marie

My name is Amanda Morrow - most people call me Mandy. I'm 17 years young and a junior in high school. I live in a small town in the valley; where everyone knows everyone and football players get the most recognition. I know who I am and I know what I'm capable of. I've learned that people will form opinions on you no matter what you say or how you act and if someone isn't going to like you, so be it. It's their loss for misjudgment in character. I'm a lover not a fighter but when you cross the line and push my buttons you've got a lot more than a bitch to deal with. I'm generally a nice person but I have an obsession with flicking people off. I live my life for me and please forgive me if I forget to give a shit about what you think. I can be very simple and yet so complicated. I'm really just a confused, little girl who has some strong opinions and sometimes can't keep her mouth shut. I'm at a point in my life where I feel seriously stuck. One thing's for sure though... there's this one boy and he's got me completely love struck. I find that I'm happiest when I'm with him and I love it. I drink. I smoke. I party. I'm always down to have a good time. I won't think you're weird if you're straight edge... that's your choice, just don't preach to me about my lungs because I've already thrown those bitches in the oven. Even though I have absolutely no idea what I want to do with my life once I graduate from high school, I do know that I want to make a change and have an impact on someone's life, that's for sure. My mother is my number one hater. I've promised myself that I'd never turn out like her. Not a day goes by that we don't argue or bicker. All I want to do is prove her wrong. Despite how much of an asshole my father is and how bad he's fucked me over, we still have a great relationship. He's always been the one to try talk to me instead of yelling and I love that about him. When I was little, I always kept a diary. I wrote every thought that ever popped into my head down on paper. I loved to write. I believe writing things out is much better therapy than bottling it up inside. I'm lucky enough to have two best friends. The most amazing thing about them is that we've been able to grow up together without growing apart and without them I would not be the person I am today. It's a crazy world we live in; how many people say they hate liars, backstabbers and shit-talkers when in reality, that's all we've shown for ourselves. I've learned a lot about life - the hard way. I've hurt some people and people have hurt me but life works out in a funny way where you know everything is going to be okay. I'd prefer to be in sweats and a t-shirt everyday of the week but dressing up, doing my hair and putting on make-up does make me feel good. I can't stand it when my nails aren't painted. I like things that are unique. I'm a firm believer that you should make the most out of who you are and love it. I think everyone is beautiful in their own way and I love getting to know people. Everyone has their own story and it's so weird to think that whatever situation you're in now, someone else is going through something ten times worst... I guess that has made me stronger in a way to overcome my problems. I believe that there is a solution to everything - it's whether you're willing to find it out or not that makes you a strong person. I don't think I'm insanely attractive and I'm actually really harsh on myself, but that doesn't mean I'm not proud of what I've got. I've suffered with plenty image problems in the past but I've realized that wishing you were someone else won't make you them and having confidence in yourself is what makes you beautiful. I love being young, dumb and making mistakes. I dread the day I have to look back on my life and realize that it's too late to do this; or how I should have done that. I'll admit that I'm not very booksmart but I know a good character. I am no better than you, you are no better than me. We all make mistakes; no one is perfect. Give respect to get it.

Wednesday May 23 @ 12:32am

Tell Me Lies: I Win.

easilydifficult:

She doesn’t get it. She never will. And that’s ok. Some things in life aren’t meant to be understood. We always argue about who loves who the most and who misses who the most. I always win. But she thinks i say i win because she doesnt fight back anymore. Thats not the case. I win because i have…

Saturday May 19 @ 10:34pm